urrghhh
Jun. 12th, 2008 | 08:34 pm
rite now i have the fullest stomahh u cud think of!! its fuckin groossss!!!
iv eaten so much the past few days! well over the 2000cals!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the scales have gne up 5lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to die i came on my period 2day that cuz explain the eating everything in sight thing!!
ffs!!!!!! my parents have been away i thought it wad have been easy to not eat bt turns out its the opposite. i have moyre will power wen there in.
plz plz kill me want my will power back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
starting 2morro!
i need to do this
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oh dear god ...
Sep. 3rd, 2007 | 08:44 pm
mood:
determined
they went 2 a italian :|::|
i sat there watching the eat!!
i had nothing
i went in2 the toilets and took my slimming pills and felt beta
bt 2day iv had a rice cake, 80cal cereal bar and my 118 cals soup.
and i feel fat!!!
oh i also had 2 caramel lattes from star bucks!!!!
arrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!
im so pathetic!
y cnt i do this :(
yesterday was ded gd!!
well 2moro its NOTHING!
im deffo gunna do it i hope.
love
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omg!!!
Sep. 2nd, 2007 | 07:11 pm
mood:
crappy
it made me bad
but i feel like i have NO1 2 talk 2!
im so down and depressed!!!
its so hard!
iv argued with my bf 2day cuz iv nt been having sex with him!
i cnt tho its like i look dwn at my DESCUSTING body!!
and arrrrrrgggggggghhhhhh i jst want 2 curl up and die!
:(:(
my mum knows im not eating properly and its so hard 2 cover up.
+ hollyoaks !
omg every1 thinks it will change my mind, bt iz it desterbuing that wen i saw her ribs i want that!!!
its wierd!
i hope nobody finds my book under my bed :| they will think im mad.
im so sick of this i jst want 2 b thin.
cereal bar 4 brecky 2day
and then i went nd had a few nuts!! ewwwwwww i cnt belive that!
i feel fat and gross nw theres so much in nuts!!!! arrrrggggggghhhhh!!!!!!
im sorry girls :(
love you allxx
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omg!!!
Jun. 24th, 2007 | 08:37 pm
my bf stayed last nite!!!
i was doin so well!! i was eatin at least 200cals aday and lost 3lb !
then he orderd a pizza!
i was starvin i hate half!!!!!! :(
luckly i havent pt on anymre weight and i exercised ldz afta!
bt 2day has been liquids includin yohgurt.
bt 4 tea i had spinach & cabbage!
so i think iv dun well 2day :)
wooooo!!
stay happy! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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purge!
Jun. 22nd, 2007 | 06:19 pm
mood:
depressed
and this latte is makin me feel sick!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
think purge then lots ov water!
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fuck sake!!!!!!
Jun. 22nd, 2007 | 05:59 pm
mood:
annoyed
arrrrrrrghhhhhh
2day has been SO bad!!! :@:@
i was doin so welll!!!
nd wat did i go and do have a fuckin biscuit bar! with a caramell latte from nero's! :@ :(
im soooooooooo moody and down!
2 top it off my bf has ditched me 4 his m8 2nite!
wunderfull :(
i jst wanna sit up the corner and cry like a stupid bitch i am!!
:( :(:(
nw i feel like a rite FAT bitch!
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woooohooooo!
Jun. 22nd, 2007 | 10:04 am
mood:
content
:)
lost 3lb afta 2 days! :)
thats gd 4 me that is :)
thats jst made me want carry on and on and on!!!!!
even tho i feel weak and awful :( another 10lb 2 go!
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2days menu!
Jun. 22nd, 2007 | 09:30 am
b. handful ov oat on more cereal
d. 2 celery sticks
t. stir fried cabbage and spinach with no oil ! with onions garlic and soy sourse :) zero calories 4 tea! :)
i dnt cout the cals in the onions and stuff!
:):)
i hope i lose 13lb SOON!
:(
xxxxxxx hope ur all doin well! xxxxxxx
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:(
Jun. 20th, 2007 | 07:48 pm
mood:
cranky
i keep stapping dead bad at every1!!!
:( i dnt mean 2 !
iv lost my bf b4 ov nt eating!!
and now im being a bitch AGAIN!! arrrgghhhh
i cnt help it and iv told myself so many timesss not 2!
i HATE this!
+ i feel DED fat!
and i swear sum guy bhind me 2day was sayin "fatty" nd all sorts!
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arrgghh
Jun. 20th, 2007 | 07:21 pm
:( i feeeeellll HORRIBLE!!!!
allll dat iv had liquids! and jst chewed on gum!
then iv jst had a slice ov toast wiv half a can ov beans :(
i feelll FAT and bloated!
its grosss!
iv gt a feeling its fingers down throat time :|
NICE! <_<
xxxxx
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well
Jun. 20th, 2007 | 09:26 am
mood:
sleepy
im feelin ded gd atm :)
iv jst woken up had a drink ov tea!
and im sposed me meeting my friends 4 a drink at 10!!
i think ill stick 2 a froozen mango and pinaple drink!
:)
nd i think 2day bk on those celery sticks! there reli good!
they have like NO cals! + fill u up :)
amazing try it guys!
xxxxxxx good luck 2day ! xxxxxx
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argghh
Jun. 19th, 2007 | 09:47 pm
mood:
hungry
im starving!
i feel so sick im that hungry.
wat can i eat 2 fill me up>??
that contains like hardly NO cal's??
any sugesstions guys????
xxxxxx
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wow
Jun. 19th, 2007 | 09:30 pm
mood:
moody
heyyy guys!
my m8 told me bout this sight and its like my prayers have been answerd!!
will sum1 tell me wat i can eat that will fill me 4 a gd while with hardly NO cal's???
im starving atm!
xxx thanks! xxx
